What now? is a question i’ve been asking myself for a good year or so. A question that’s been going through my mind that i’ve not been able to answer.
It’s hard when you’ve been so passionate about something for years and you just fall out of love with and let it fizzle out. It’s not what I wanted for my little piece of the internet. My blog has meant everything to me for the past 6 years, it was my go-to for when I was feeing sad to write my feelings down, it was always a way for me to communicate what I was feeling without saying much in real life. It’s weird how saying so much on the internet but not saying much in real life can be so therapeutic and sometimes much needed.
My blog has helped me though some of the toughest times and I found so much support through it. Going through cancer and all the shit that comes with it really does take your mind and body to a different place and it’s hard to react to. Having somewhere to write about it helped me massively but not only me, others who found me and my blog and then i’ve gone on to support. It makes my heart so happy knowing i’ve been there for someone in my position, it doesn’t get better than that.
On the other hand, blogging can be frustrating. The time and money you have to put in to upkeep your little website with sometimes none to little feedback can be so draining. When I first started out I was happy enough writing and publishing posts without even thinking about it which I think is something I need to get back to, now there’s SEO to think about, keywords, links, keyprahses, images, enough words? and that’s only the start. It’s a lot and I think we just need to go back to the basics.
It really feels like i’m writing a goodbye to my blog right now but i’m just not ready to let it go just yet. To lose everything i’ve written throughout the years I can’t bare thinking about. I put my heart into most of my posts and to not have them there really does break my heart. One day I’ll be ready to let them go but not yet.
Throughout the years blogging has changed so much, the community has dwindled down to nothing as a lot of people who were blogging a few years ago have now stopped for many reasons but the community that I loved so much just isn’t there anymore. I remember the twitter chats a few times a week and just the girls overall who I chatted to constantly about everything not just blogging who i miss so much now. It sucks that it’s just not there anymore but I suppose that’s life and sometimes it has to happen.
SO. What now? I think I need to go back to the basics, go back to who I was before all the technical jargon and just write so that’s what I’m going to do. I don’t know what sort of posts you’ll see from me for the foreseable yet and how often, it’ll be a surprise for both me and you but I’ll be back writing and for now that’s what I want.
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