Oh, yes you read the title right. It’s the yearly life update which was originally supposed to be a monthly one but that fell off a cliff after the first post.
When I was thinking about writing another life update I had so much in my head I wanted to say but now it’s come to writing it all down I’ve gone completely blank. Typical of me really. I’m a sucker for writing everything down, I have to-do lists every morning sometimes I even make myself timings if I have a busy day but when it comes down to writing my thoughts down on a blog post my brain goes nope, not today.
Were going a bit deep early on in this blog post but just need to get it off my chest. Friendships are a funny thing aren’t they? Isn’t it weird how someone you’ve known for a month can get you so much more than someone you’ve known for 6 years but sometimes cutting people out of your life can be so much better for you and something I’ve come to learn after all these years. Toxic behaviour is something I don’t need in my life right now or at all for that matter.
It wouldn’t be a life update without my mentioning running would it? It’s been very hit and miss on the running front to be honest but I am looking forward to a 5K race I have on the 20th July, I haven’t ran in a race for over a year now so very much looking to get back to it. I have had some motivation as I recently purchased my very first Garmin watch which I am totally and utterly obsessed with. I brought the Garmin Venu 3S and I couldn’t be happier with it, I was very much on the fence on wether to go towards apple but Garmin are just superior in fitness and accuracy so my decision was easy and it helps that the watch itself is pretty, not that I brought it for the aesthetic. I’m planning on doing a full in depth review once I’ve worn it a bit more.
The plan is still to run a half marathon at the end of the year, It’s one goal I’m very much aiming towards. It may be a struggle but wether I do it in a race or around where I live It’s something that I want to get ticked off my running bucket list after getting yet another London Marathon rejection letter recently. I may just book Manchester..
On the mental health front it’s quite positive, yes you read that right. I’ve been keeping myself busy but also making sure I take care of myself so adding in some self-care when needed and of course I’ve had a couple of bad days, I mean who doesn’t? but overall I’ve felt quite content with life. Loosing Bailey at the end of last year was absolutely devastating for me personally, he was my constant support system and when I lost him, I lost myself. I still have days when I miss him like mad and that’s when I break down and go quiet but I’ve found coping mechanisms and one of those is reading. I’ve never been a book girly but I have been reading a lot more and actually enjoying it. I normally only read a book when I go away or on a road trip but I have been taking an hour or so out of my day to read a few chapters and It’s the highlight of my day sometimes. That may sound sad but it really does cheer me up.
At work, my contract has been increased which has taken some stress away but It’s still not enough for me right now. I’m constantly looking for a full time job but don’t want to throw myself into something I’m not happy or passionate in, It’s just a waiting game. I have found side hustling recently which I’m finding quite fun and it’s really helping top up my monthly finances. I’m finding I can put a lot more into my savings which is a massive plus. We’re saving for a lot of things and I’m very much here for all the side hustling.
9 years have now gone by since I heard the words of “you’re cancer free” from my consultant. 9 whole years. I can’t believe I’m writing that to be honest. Next year will be 10 and that number honestly felt like a dream when I was going through all those harsh treatments.
It doesn’t stop making me feel so grateful I can still live a healthy life, it really does only feel like yesterday. Every single day I’m reminded by my body just how much it went through but I’m also reminded of how precious life is and that it can be taken away from you in a second.
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Good luck in your 5k race next week lovely! Toxic friendships are never worth it lovely and it’s always better to cut yourself now than later! x
Lucy | http://www.lucymary.co.uk
Thank you so much, Lucy! Oh i completely agree, they’re totally not worth it x